2013 has been such a blur to me partly because it’s either I was drowned in homework or I wasted my time in playing computer games. But I did have an awesome year. Having said that, I do remember traveling to California, Las Vegas and the Grand Canyon for the first time, thanks to Ricky’s generosity. I graduated with an Associate in General Studies, which will come handy when I pursue for my bachelor’s in nursing. I have finally got accepted to the region’s most competitive RN program. And I have seen my sister and my nephew after five years.
I know there are a few not-so-auspicious-things that I’d like to remember, but one thing stood out: Ricky’s infidelity that broke our relationship. It’s been months since I’ve ranted about our mishap and a lot of things have been revealed and so much have been left for future Khristine and future Ricky to discuss and to fix. Up to this day, we consider ourselves “single” yet exclusive to each other since we’re still intimately attached. Instead of branding ourselves as “in a relationship,” we are “complicated.”
I think Ricky understands that to re-gain my trust and to prove to me that I deserve more than an apology to get me back, I have seen him put a lot of effort, which he failed to address when we were still together. That’s probably why up to this day, I haven’t agreed to become his “official” girlfriend because my theory is that once he puts the leash on me, branded me as his girl, he’ll get back to his comfy chair and let the old times roll by. He assured me that this won’t happen, but I am not quite convinced yet.
This year, 2014, I have no expectations of grand surprises other than the fact that the World Cup is right around the corner. I’m not a sports fanatic and I’m not a soccer/football enthusiast. However, it does bring me a reminiscing eerie from World Cup 2010, the last match I saw with my Italian ex-boyfriend, Beppe, and the year that I met him and Ricky. It has been four whole years since I’ve seen Beppe and four whole years since I’ve known Ricky. I look back and remember the people who came and left and the promises I made to myself that I hoped to accomplish this year. None of it was close to what I’ve expected, but I don’t regret anything at all. In fact, I believe that the outcome was far better than I’ve expected.
As for my resolution, I don’t have anything in mind since I know that I don’t usually follow through. I do have goals both short and long. I’m hoping that my progress in life remains constant and unchanging. My goals involve living a healthier lifestyle and to stick with it no matter what. Also, I want to build a stable relationship with myself and to honor a designated day where I can enjoy it doing something that does not involve surfing the net or playing video games. I’ve got some more goals in mind, but I’d prefer to write it down rather than to type it in here and then forget that they existed.
2014 is a new year. What’s your resolution(s) or goals in mind?