One would ask,
“Didn’t you just get your Practical Nurse license? When and where are you planning to work at? What’s next?”
I hate that question honestly. Not because of the person asking me that, but because it irritates me that I don’t have an answer. You’d be surprised, but I really don’t.
I hate to broadcast to the world and to strangers that I have problems, but sometimes, I feel like releasing it out of my chest feels a whole lot better than caging myself in. However, don’t judge me, that’s all I’m asking.
I cannot work yet as a nurse since I’m waiting for my “green” card to come out to allow me to work. Just before you jump from your seat and call Immigration, I am legally staying here, but I cannot work, since I’m on student visa. I’m waiting for the green card that my parents petitioned me to have and it’s been killing me. Really, it has.
Imagine having to be in my position: I cannot work legally and I do not want to risk myself working “under the table.” I help out my mom with her work without gaining any monetary gain other than she letting me stay in her roof for free. I’d like to work and be independent but the green card is holding me down. But really, once it gets out (hopefully!), I will immediately step out into the working force.
However, in the meantime… I’m only polishing my nursing license and diploma (not really…). I decided to continue studying for nursing: applying for Registered Nurse then transfer to a two-year university to gain my Bachelor’s. To gain more experience in the health field, I decided to volunteer at a local hospital. Hopefully, that will make me busy.
Well… to be honest, I would really like to be busy.
Maybe I should devote the majority of my time crafting and selling it online.
Oh.. I don’t know.
Ugh. My life feels like it’s on a standstill and I cannot move. This is probably one of the reasons why I’m very depressed right now.