I’m turning 22 soon !!!
I guess I have every right to celebrate!
I haven’t been active in blogging lately. I don’t know, it seems like I lost interest in almost anything: from crafting to blogging. I’m quite depressed right now and I’m desperate to have friends.
I hate the word “desperate.” But it’s what I feel right now.
I do have some “friends” but they are either far away or we don’t relate to each other as much as we did before. I do have Ricky as my boyfriend and a friend, but I need FRIENDS especially girls. I feel like I’m in my own boat and the rest of my girl friends have their own cliques now. I can’t even relate to most of them anymore! I find that their drama is sooo high school and I want some decent, quality time together without having drama about boys.
Sometimes, I feel like looking for girl-friends is almost like looking for a relationship. I remember my best friend Faith advised me to be single for awhile after dating seasonal boyfriends and to accept being alone. I learned to accept the joys of being single and eventually, Ricky and I started getting intimate without me expecting us jumping into a relationship.
Now, my boyfriend Ricky, advised me to be happy being alone and that the “right” friends will come along eventually. So I guess all I have to do is to truly be alone and maybe… there’s a hope for having trusted friends.
Whatever. I hate being alone, but if I must, then so be it.